깊은밤에...

                                                                                                            

 

                                                     

 

 

                                                                                                              

                                                                                   *( 깊 은 밤 에 )*

                                                                                                              

                                                                                   나는 항상 낮은곳으로만 흐르는 강물이였지 
                                                                               모르고 싶은곳이 있어도 오를수없는 강뭉이였지 
                                                                            어느날은 바다로 가고싶어 흘러 갔지만 그러지 못했어 
                                                                             높다란 댐이란 놈이 가로막아 꼼짝없이 갚이고 말았지

 
                                                                                                             

                                                                                          나는 항상 그늘만 찾아 다녔지
                                                                         나도 따뜻한 햇볓이 좋은지알고 있지만 그러지 못했어 
                                                                      언젠가 따뜻한 햇살이 필요해 누군가의 언덕을 찾아보았지
                                                                                             그런데 그럴수 없었어 
                                                                                왜냐하면 그곳에는 이미 주인이 정해져 있었거든

 

                                                                                                            

                                                                              나는 항상 누군가를 끊임없이 지켜보고 있었지
                                                                            사랑할수 없으면서 좋아한다고 말할줄 모르면서 
                                                                                  괜히 나혼자 좋아 끝없이 바라보고 있었지
                                                                                      그런데 말이야 참으로 가슴 아프더라 
                                                                             불덩이 같은 가슴이 너무 뜨거워 달려가고 싶었지만
                                                                                     그러지 못했어. 초라한 내 모습 때문에

 

                                                                                                             

                                                                                     나는 요즘 산으로 숨어들고픈 마음뿐이야 
                                                                                   도시에도 들에도 내가 갈만한 곳이 없더라구
                                                                                   그래서 차라리 깊은산속 나무가 되기로 했지 
                                                                                 말없는 나무가 나더러 가라구 하진 않을톄니까
                                                                           구름과 바람 안개와 노을이 있는 산으로 가고싶은거야

 

                                                                                                             

                                                                                     멀리 지평선이 바라보이면 더욱 좋게ㅅ고
                                                                                   흐르는 강물이 더 가까우면 더 없이 좋겠지만 
                                                                                 풀섶에 우는 풀섬에 친구하여 살아 가다보면
                                                                           아무나 생각할수 없는 시 한줄적어수 있지않을까 싶어 
                                                                                가을이 오기전에 떠나려고 했는데 그러지 못했어 
                                                                                         아무것도 준비못한 내 탓이야
                                                                         아직은 가야할길이 많이 남아 있으니까 언젠가는 떠날거야

                                                                                                            

                                                                      강가에서 밤하늘의 별을 바라보면 이런저런 생각에 잠겨있으려니 
                                                                        누군가의 아름다운 얼굴이 떠오르고 기다리는 마음이 슬퍼지네 
                                                                             낮은 곳으로만 흐르는 저 강물처럼 거슬러 오르지 못하고
                                                                     자꾸만 흐르는 저 강물처럼 저렇게 흐르다 지치면 어쩌나 싶어
                                                                                                 괜히 눔눌이 나네..

 

                                                                                                           

                                                                                           어둡고 깊은밤이라 그럴까..
                                                                                 마음들곳없는 내 마음이 방항해서 그럴까
                                                                                햇살한점 없는 까만밤에 누가 찾아 오리라고
                                                                              열린 창문 닫아 걸지못하고 넋두리로 밤을 새울까
                                                                               이 땅에 스산한 바람이 불면서 가을 깊어 가는밤..
                                                                             기러기 날개 잡고 날아가면 그리움 만날수 있을까..

 

 

                                                                                                           

 

                                                                        

                                                                                                    *(글/이문주님)*

 

                                                                                             

 

 

                                                                                              *(사랑해오빠/편집)*